The Truth 💘

 

So yeah, Hi! Assalamualaikum :D

It's already in the last week of April in 2018. 

Quite a some time I didn't update anything here.

It's been a busy semester! And I'm kinda stress to cope with it 😂

Can't help it though since it's a normal degree student's life.

And you know what?

Yesterday was the day of Infinity War (Marvel's Movie) release! hehe 😄

I was kinda excited that I asked him (my crush) out to watch the movie 👉👈

Yeah still the same crush since last 5 months 🙈

He's a Marvel's fan you know..

So we went out to watch the movie, not just both of us.

The movie is quite fun and wonderful to watch.

After the movie, we went to eat at McDonalds (That's the most easy idea on where to eat 😂)

And I took a chance on asking him personally about...

What he feels about me, something like that.

And I felt kinda relieved though to get to know the answer straight from him.

He's currently not ready for any commitment though.

And he explained that he's not into or being close to any girls, even his own classmates!

I don't know what to feel; to feel happy or sad.

But I feel so relieved! haha I don't even know why

And he's just being so cool when I talked about those stuff with him.

Haihh how can I not fall into him even more? 👉👈🙈

I think.. it's better for me to be honest about my feelings towards him.

Let's look forward about it! Hehe 

And... yeah. It's going to be the end of semester.

Final is coming~ Wish me luck! 😉😁

🌹🌸 Tysm 🌸🌹

💕 27 December 2017 💕

For the first time I went out of the town with him.
We went to Pantai Sungai Lurus, Senggarang.
I'm the one who asked him out 👉👈
because it's been a while we didn't go out together
and I want to spend some time with him 😁

I felt guilty a bit by made him going out with me todayy 😅
because he's the type, who won't stop when he starts the studying.
But somehow i felt so happy
because he's willingly to spent some time with me. Hehe 🙈
and i got the chance to know him more..

He's the type who knows that by just being beside me could make me happy,
who understands that there's no need to talk to each other
all the time (to give me some space to have my own time).
Honestly, I do feel very pleased with his way.

When we're being together, we could talk anything that we feel like to
like we would talk about the comparison of both of us
in our ways of studies and life.
He's the only one who could encourages me to keep up with my studies.
I feel so much comfortable when I'm with him.

Somehow, I can't lie that my heart's longing for him.
I want to be in a serious commitment with him
but I don't have the courage and yet I'm scared to start it all over again.
So I'm currently just follow the flow
and we'll see where'll the story of me and him end up.
Allahu'alam.

By the wayy,
Thank youu so much 🌸
You don't know how happy I am
Your presence by just being beside me could made my day
eventhough I'm not in the mood to smile at first.
but you made me 🙈
Thanks a lot 💕
Thank you for todayy 🌹

 

Dear Crush ❤

It has been 2 months since I've met him.

And you know what?

On the date that exactly 2 months I've met him (071117),

I confessed myself to him 

that I have a crush on him

and I'm not hoping too much from him, other than being friends.

At first, he told me that he was shocked

because that's the first time ever a person confessed to him 😂

and he told me that he accepted to be friends 

as he's not ready to be in a relationship yet

(that's what i told him though haha)

I'm scared that he will feel so awkward with me

but finally I'm able to endure it (yeay me!)

and now, we're still contacting each other like usual.

Somehow, his behaviour do change a little bit.

Before I confessed, he's kind of childish and playful. haha

But now, he seems more matured, by the way he texted me.

I don't know.

Maybe that's just my feelings as I like him a lot.

I can't deny that I fall for him even harder as each days pass by 😍🙈

He's somehow very cute, from my perspective. hehe

He does cherish my day since I've met him 🌸

And on 25th October 2017,

We had a picture together for the first time! 🙈

We had breakfast together at McDonalds that morning.

And before I went to class, I asked him to have a selfie together. hehehe!

Well, that's me though 😝

I can't let a chance slip away just like that, isn't it? heee

Okay, I think that's all from me, this time.

Anything, I will keep on updating 😉

 

Unspoken words, untold feelings

The more i tried to deny my own feelings, the more i fall for him.

I want him to know, but I don't want to tell him.

Day by day, I can't get him off my mind.

He's kind of nerdy and clingy.

Yeah, he's clingy. Too clingy with me.

And I just can't help myself to not fall for him.

He's kind of who can encourage me to keep on studying.

He makes me wants to come to class everyday.

I feel so comfortable when I'm around him.

I can tell stories as much as I want when I'm with him.

He's kind of cute and funny and innocent too.

But sometimes he can be clumsy 😂

When it's just the two of us, he will be so much talkative.

And he'll be so much quiet when there's other people with us.

That's kind of cute for me. Haha

But what about him? 

Does he feels the same thing like I am?

Because sometimes he treats me like a friend.

And other times, he treats me like I'm someone special.

And he's kind of being so childish when he's with me.

But I don't want to be too focused on this kind of things.

I just want him to know about what I feel.

And I want to be sure of what he feels.

Furthermore, it's just the beginning.

I don't want to put a high hope this time.

Let it flows with time.

Allah knows better than us.

Allahu'alam. Lillahita'ala.

I am confused.

Day by day, I'm getting confused with my own feelings.

Whenever how much I tried, my mind will always goes to him.

Sometimes, i wondering by myself..

"If he wants to get back with me, will I accept him or not?"

Truthfully, I'm scared to give the answer if it does happen.

If I said yes, I'm not ready to give any commitments anymore.

I'm scared to try once again, to get hurt.

Furthermore, my heart still aches with the reason he used to leave me before.

And he's still the same, does not trust me in any way.

If I said no, my heart, my mind, is longing for him.

And i do still hoping that he will change for the better.

That he could trust me and take a good care of me.

And it's not wrong to give him a second chance and try again.

But it's kinda impossible, isn't it?

I don't even know whether he's feeling the same thing with me or not.

I don't know whether his feelings for me before this, is true or not.

Or is it me, who are the one, feeling like this while he's not?

I don't know whether to hold on or just let go.

Me, myself, wants to let go because I don't want to think more about it.

But my heart wants to hold on at the same time.

This thing keep on distracting me. Ugh

Feelings..

I don't know whether I'm missing the situation or the person.

'Cause I did a throwback just now,

scrolling down all of the pictures in the album.

I can remember and describe clearly all of the story behind each of the pictures.

Is it wrong for me to miss the person who once makes me happy?

Eventhough it's quite troublesome,

but I do enjoy the person's company.

Everything that he did,

eventhough most of it annoys me,

could make me smile and laugh by myself.

Though my heart still hurt by his actions,

all I can think and see is the good side of him.

Or do I just miss the feeling of being loved by someone?

I don't know.

But the only thing I know,

there's no one could have this heart anymore.

Including him.

Exclude this one person, besides my family.

A person that I called, 'brother'.

Masalah, masalah, masalah!

Terkadang kita takboleh lari dari masalah

Ke mana saja kita pergi, masalah akan sentiasa menjadi pengikut setia

Begitu juga aku.

Hidup aku juga penuh dengan masalah, seperti orang lain juga.

Perbezaannya, bagaimana kita hadapi masalah tu

dan cara kita tanganinya.

Aku bagaikan ingin lari dari semua masalah yang membelenggu diri ini.

Mahu meluah, tapi tidak juga terluah.

Akhirnya, aku hanya mampu berdiam diri.

Menyepikan diri. Membawa diri.

Semasa di pantai kelmarin, rasa seperti tak mahu pulang.

Rasa seperti mahu menenggelamkan diri dalam air tu.

Rasa mahu tinggal di situ untuk sementara waktu.

Kataku, semuanya ok. Tidak ada apa-apa masalah.

Tapi ternyata, hanya berkata sahaja.

Di dalam hati, hanya Allah saja yang tahu.

Aku tahu aku kuat. 

Tapi kali ni, aku tewas.

Aku tak mampu nak menghadapinya.

Ianya sangat mengganggu fikiran.

Tapi aku juga tak mampu berbuat apa-apa.

Ya Allah.. kau kuatkanlah diri hambaMu ini

dalam menghadapi ujianMu.

New Life!

Assalamualaikum ~ Hi, peeps!

It has been a while since I didn't update my page.

Haha kinda busy though.

For your information, I've been busy with my degree.

Oh yeah, I am currently studying at UTHM, Batu Pahat.

(you can google it for more information)

And I'm in the 2nd semester right now.

Pheww.. how fast the time flies.

I've been enjoying my time here :D

Yeah, I do enjoy my university life a lot.

Furthermore, I'm currently busy with my army life ;)

I'm a part of ROTU UTHM family.

Kinda exhausting with it  but I love it!

Haha there's a lot of stories to tell but I can't tell all of it here.

My life has been changed a lot since I've entered here.

Alhamdulillah.. it leads to a better life and better self ^^

'Till we meet then. :*

Perpustakaan Tunku Tun Aminah
The largest library in Southeast Asia.

Roommates 💘

Assalamualaikum..

Today is the day..

The last day i'll be in KMM.

The last day i'll be with them in one room.

They are my roommates.

Tan Hui Ling (Ling) and Noorsyahirah Mohd Zaini (Kak Shae).

And one more person, Najiha Razaman (Jie).

But she's moved out from matriculation for STPM.

They have been a wonderful and cool roommates.

I enjoyed their presence as my roommates here.

There's a lot, incrediblely a lot of memories with them.

And i'm gonna miss every each of it.

Banyak sangat benda nak cakap.. tapi taktahu nak cakap mcm mana.

Apa pun, i'm sorry for every of my mistakes that i've done during i'm being your roommate.

Ira mtk ampun dan maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki.

Halalkan everything yg Ling and akak dah bagi kat ira ea?

Ling, 

Thanks sebab selalu dengar cerita saya walaupun saya selalu kacau awak study.

Thanks sebab help me out with my studies.

Thanks sebab being an adorable roommate ever.

Thanks a lot, dear.

I'm gonna miss you so much. Honestly.

Akak,

Thanks jugak sebab akak selalu sabar dgn kerenah ira.

Thanks sebab selalu jadi kawan ira utk "fangirling" 😂

Thanks sebab pernah pujuk ira nangis, bagi pendapat bila ira mtk.

Thanks sangat-sangat.

Nanti ira mesti rindu nak dengar akak gelak gila-gila dalam bilik 😁 hehe

And.. Jie,

Thanks sebab selalu teman aku makan time kau ada kat sini..

Thanks sebab selalu dengar cerita aku.

Thanks sebab bagi nasihat kat aku bila aku perlukannya.

Thanks sebab selalu bagi semangat kat aku.

Aku rindu kau, Jie.

Don't forget me yea? ^^

Ada masa nanti, turun lah Seremban. 

Nanti ira bawa korang jalan 😉 Hee

Take care, dear roommates!

I heart you.

  

 

B3.1.A ✿

Assalamualaikum..

Wing B3.1.A..

One wing, one heart.

Together we work, together we fight.

There's a lot of memories with them through the 10 months together.

Good and bad, happy and sad..

Thanks a lot, dear wingmates.

I'm sorry for not being a good leader to all of you.

But despite that, all of you had taught me much.

About living together as one team.

Thank you for all of the cooperation and advices.

Lepasni, dah takde lah nak dengar korang panggil aku "kiwi" lagi dah.

Asalnya ketua wing.

Dipendekkan, jadi K.Wing.

Bila lama-lama disebut, jadi kiwi. Hahah

Thanks korang utk everything.

Maafkan aku dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki ya? ;)

Forget me not, dear wingmates!

Loveya :*

- Your "kiwi" -

 

S33P5 ♥

Assalamualaikum..

Today, i'm going to write S33P5, my beloved classmates.

S33P5..

A class that i've never expect to be with.

A class that are full of joy and laughter including during the stressful moments.

Consists of 19 students - 5 males and 14 females.

One person is a-year older than us in here.

And he's the one who became our leader (class monitor).

There are a lot of memories that we've made together through the 10 months.

A lot. 

I can't even say any of it because there's a lot to say, to describe.

But, whatever it is, i'm here to say that i'm sorry for everything.

For all of the mistakes that i've done to all of you.

And thank you so much for being my classmates.

I enjoyed every each moments with all of you.

Too much to remember, to be keep.

I hope.. everyone enjoyed being here. Being in one class. Together.

Kalau ada yang dah nak langsung tu nanti, hantar la kad jemputan yea. Hoho

Banyak benda aku nak cakap sebenarnya.. 

Tapi.. idea semua hilang. Haha sorry ~

Apa pun, take care yea, korang!

Kenang daku dalam doamu..

Lots of love.

  

 

 

College...

Assalamualaikum..

As you can see on the picture above.. that's my current situation :(

I don't want to go back to college.. T.T

But I have to..

PSPM is getting near.. ohmyy!

Wish me luck for it and for getting back my study mood :(

May Allah Ease Everything.

Aamiin..

New One.

Assalamualaikum :)
Hey there. This is my new page.
The old ones I've never editing it since... few years ago. Lol
I'm quite busy with my new life.
So.. maybe I will not updating my page frequently.
I'm sorry for that.
Hope you're enjoy viewing my page! ;)
I'm not that creative as you can see.. Haha
Okay then.'Till we meet again ;)